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thanate ([personal profile] thanate) wrote2019-12-26 03:47 pm
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Another year, another excuse

Well, I am now 41, which is going to be hard to remember because I've been thinking of myself as (almost) 40 for multiple years now, and it's not interesting like 42. I feel highly unprepared to write something introspective; I have been battling clutter with losses on both sides, rediscovered my writing process, lost it again, and am struggling to get it back (my latest to-do list included "think about [character]"), and my crafting internet-friend-group has been put through the wringer & is part-way through restructuring itself. My other internets are mostly-silent (here) or drowning in apocalypse (twitter), and my irl friend groups are largely busy in other places than I am. There's a lot of losing touch and shifting things going on, and I haven't figured out what I want to do about it, besides "something."

My goals going forward are continuations: continue writing, continue decluttering, continue walking up hills twice a school day, continue slowly getting around to the things I want done. Read books. Get sleep. Coax my brain into working better (always) and the Megatherium into doing her homework/chores/etc less painfully. Oh, and I want to plant some chestnut trees out at the annex come spring.

Our baselines are way up from last year, at least... grauwulf is doing pretty darn well; he's gone back to barely sleeping in the last month or so, but otherwise is a functional adult (yay!) and while the Megatherium has taken to sudden fits of tears or belligerent denials when told to do basic tasks like get dressed or help clean things, we (mostly I, but she did help) cleared out enough of her room that I can vacuum 2/3 of the floor that doesn't have furniture on it. She has also been watching The Zoo (behind-the-scenes doccumentary at the Bronx Zoo) which is orders of magnitude better than the Paw Patrol of last year, and her teacher says she's mostly worked out her ability to concentrate in school.
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[personal profile] sartorias 2019-12-27 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
Happy belated birthday!
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[personal profile] sartorias 2019-12-27 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
:-)
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[personal profile] sovay 2019-12-27 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday!

I like the idea of the chestnut trees.
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[personal profile] queenoftheskies 2019-12-27 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy Belated Birthday!

I hope your next year of life is kind and that you accomplish your goals.
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[personal profile] pameladean 2019-12-27 08:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday! I too cheer on the chestnut trees. I like prime-number birthdays myself, although they are maybe a bit stark, as numbers, to be truly interesting, aside from the strictly mathematical definition of that term.

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[personal profile] vcmw 2019-12-27 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy belated birthday! I'm glad that the baselines are up, and I join you in the sort of... journey of trying to continue the things that are good and navigated all the unexpecteds.

Many cozy thoughts to you.
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[personal profile] jazzfish 2019-12-28 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
Congratulations and happy yesterday! I spent most of 41 thinking I was 42 and having to correct myself; it's just that kind of age.

I'm happy to hear that things are continuing and maybe even improving, too.
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[personal profile] ivy 2019-12-28 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday! And chestnut trees are lovely and you're doing the future world a favor there.