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thanateSo as I've mentioned, I've been wasting a great deal of time looking at BJD websites in the last two days. I was looking for Janet and Thomas... her I think I'd recognize (and fortunately haven't seen yet), although I'm not sure about him. And I have found a great many very lovely dolls (and a whole bunch of stupid looking ones, often because of bad face-ups... what is it with the pink eyeshadow? they look ill!) and as with a lot of eastern art, there are a few too many of the boys who are very hard to tell apart from the girls. It's sort of creepy. And my favorite doll so far (I couldn't even quite explain why) is this guy... and nothing about this face, wig, posture or outfit says masculine to me. I can't tell if taking off the hat would help or not... And they don't sell just this head, so I couldn't get that and a girl body; I'd have to have the boy body too.
And... this is reasonably low-end price range for these guys. And I don't know if I can justify in any way spending this kind of money on a doll, however nice... I mean, it's not that I can't afford it. Part of the problem is that I totally could just go out and order two or three of these guys. But it seems like such an extravagent waste of money. I mean, it's not like I don't have a room full of dolls all over the place. Which I don't make sufficient use of as it is. Shipping another one in from Asia someplace, who costs more than any three of my "real" (as opposed to the barbies, who are all-but-one secondhand) doll collection put together, is just me being greedy to no particular purpose. I'd feel better about it if I had to save up for months to be able to afford a doll, that if it requires a bunch of effort put into it, that makes it a little less impulse-like, and therefore slightly more ok. Rather than, oh, having resisted looking at them since, oh, August maybe? because I didn't want to be tempted into getting one. Yeah, anyway...
I swear, half my problem is I can't decide if I should be living like I have disposable income, since I have, or feeling bad because I shouldn't really have disposable income at this point because effectively my cost of living right now is gas, car insurance, and rent on my storage unit, and saving every penny against the time when I do need to pay for things again and have no idea what kind of income I'll be making then. And of course, neither possible extreme is a wholly good idea, but I'm not sure where vastly expensive dolls fall in this continuum.
no decisions yet, anyway.
And... this is reasonably low-end price range for these guys. And I don't know if I can justify in any way spending this kind of money on a doll, however nice... I mean, it's not that I can't afford it. Part of the problem is that I totally could just go out and order two or three of these guys. But it seems like such an extravagent waste of money. I mean, it's not like I don't have a room full of dolls all over the place. Which I don't make sufficient use of as it is. Shipping another one in from Asia someplace, who costs more than any three of my "real" (as opposed to the barbies, who are all-but-one secondhand) doll collection put together, is just me being greedy to no particular purpose. I'd feel better about it if I had to save up for months to be able to afford a doll, that if it requires a bunch of effort put into it, that makes it a little less impulse-like, and therefore slightly more ok. Rather than, oh, having resisted looking at them since, oh, August maybe? because I didn't want to be tempted into getting one. Yeah, anyway...
I swear, half my problem is I can't decide if I should be living like I have disposable income, since I have, or feeling bad because I shouldn't really have disposable income at this point because effectively my cost of living right now is gas, car insurance, and rent on my storage unit, and saving every penny against the time when I do need to pay for things again and have no idea what kind of income I'll be making then. And of course, neither possible extreme is a wholly good idea, but I'm not sure where vastly expensive dolls fall in this continuum.
no decisions yet, anyway.