how hard we tried

Can you remember wanting desperately to hold onto something, with all your heart (or soul, or whatever you call your capacity for wanting things) that you not only don't want anymore, but can't really remember why it was so important to you?

---( ...and when we leave the landlord will come and paint over it all. )

...sorry to be so depressing; I'm not, I think, explaining the insides of my head fully, because I don't think it's quite as tragic as I've probably implied...

thunderstorms!

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