...and one more thing
Mar. 20th, 2007 09:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thanatewhich is a little awkward, and I have not yet spoken to all the people who I probably need to talk to about it, so my apologies on that head. But it appears that I didn't make it widely enough known that I honestly didn't want an award of arms; certainly within the people who were at gulf wars, the people who knew I was supposed to get one and the people (ok, maybe that was just me and Mel) who knew I didn't want it never quite got together. I probably ought to have asked Troy when he made some vague reference to "just some stuff" happening at Atlantian court, but I had asked my baroness some time ago to discourage people from attempting to give it to me, and was thus assuming it wasn't something I had to worry about.
So, ah, I have (extremely awkwardly) refused my AOA in court; Ragnar was very nice about it, but I still feel bad. If anyone on this list is still speaking to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ssdevilducky, please let him know; I don't know if he's likely to appreciate it anymore, but he did once promise to fall out of his seat laughing if I did that. Um. I also feel like once I get sorted out exactly what happened, I owe their majesties an apology.
Why I don't want an AOA: I am fully aware that my reasonings are kind of childish on this, and I thank everyone who thinks I deserve the recognition for attempting to be nice to me. But I am playing in the SCA because I have a lot of friends here, and because I really like the style of fencing, and I'm not interested in playing the game of advancement. This may change, but for the moment I would much rather be the good anglo-saxon peasant that I am, heritage-wise, than play dress-up like a princess like I did when I was a kid. I don't mean to be disrespectful of anyone else who wants to do such a thing, but in my head it would be reverting to being twelve. And while I am totally aware that there are lots of other people who have titles and choose not to use them, I am not interested in being titled as a lady so long as there are still people who tell me patronizingly that lower class is "not what the SCA is about." It is not what it's about for most of you; this is why I'm not interested in participating in that aspect of the game.
So again, I thank everyone who thought I ought to have the award, but I really don't want a title, and for my own personal reasons I have difficulties with the great veil of secrecy that prevents people knowing they're going to get something before in fact they do; I don't want to spoil the surprise for anyone else of course, but in my case, I really don't want to be called into court not knowing whether I'm going to be willing to accept whatever I'm about to be given.
So, ah, I have (extremely awkwardly) refused my AOA in court; Ragnar was very nice about it, but I still feel bad. If anyone on this list is still speaking to
ssdevilducky, please let him know; I don't know if he's likely to appreciate it anymore, but he did once promise to fall out of his seat laughing if I did that. Um. I also feel like once I get sorted out exactly what happened, I owe their majesties an apology. Why I don't want an AOA: I am fully aware that my reasonings are kind of childish on this, and I thank everyone who thinks I deserve the recognition for attempting to be nice to me. But I am playing in the SCA because I have a lot of friends here, and because I really like the style of fencing, and I'm not interested in playing the game of advancement. This may change, but for the moment I would much rather be the good anglo-saxon peasant that I am, heritage-wise, than play dress-up like a princess like I did when I was a kid. I don't mean to be disrespectful of anyone else who wants to do such a thing, but in my head it would be reverting to being twelve. And while I am totally aware that there are lots of other people who have titles and choose not to use them, I am not interested in being titled as a lady so long as there are still people who tell me patronizingly that lower class is "not what the SCA is about." It is not what it's about for most of you; this is why I'm not interested in participating in that aspect of the game.
So again, I thank everyone who thought I ought to have the award, but I really don't want a title, and for my own personal reasons I have difficulties with the great veil of secrecy that prevents people knowing they're going to get something before in fact they do; I don't want to spoil the surprise for anyone else of course, but in my case, I really don't want to be called into court not knowing whether I'm going to be willing to accept whatever I'm about to be given.
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Date: 2007-03-20 07:38 pm (UTC)Although ssdevilducky was "offended" by the awards which he received, he did not refuse them. He said he did not want recognition, yet his nose was out of joint whenever he was NOT recognized. It was a case of damned if you do or damned if you don't with him. At least you are clear on what you do and do not want.